First of all, Happy New Year! I hope you had a great holidays with your loved ones. And for those who had a rough time this time of the year, I send you a big hug.
I don’t even know if somebody reads this blog, I write it because I like to do it, of course I’d like if a lot of people liked it too, but it doesn’t matter that much really.
This last months of 2022 have been a bit tough to me, specially these last weeks, I kind of broke up with my boyfriend, with which I’ve been for over 6 years, and even before that, I think I started to fall into the beginnings of a depression, and my situation at my work has been worse and worse over the last months of the year, I feel completely rejected and underestimated there, which has helped me sink myself even more in this bad situation mentally in which I’m in.
This last month of December, I’ve barely eat or drink water, my body didn’t even show any signs of hunger or thirst, so most days I even forgot to drink water, to the point that one day my lips started to bruise and break due to dehydratation. I also stopped exercising, and that’s something that I love, I like to exercise almost everyday, but this month I haven’t work out even one day.
Also, I’ve been sleeping ike 3-4 hours a day, I just can’t sleep, and I’ve been drinking too much alcohol almost every day. I’m at a pretty low point, and it’s not only for my romantic break up, because as I said, I feel this fall into depression or whatever this is started before we broke up.
So, for this new year, my only true resolution is to find the strenght to fight fiercely again, because this is not me, I feel I don’t even know myself, but I feel I’m so much more than this and what other people think I am, so this year I truly want to be my first priority, my most important project, I want to stop drinking every day, I want to exercise again, I want to work on myself, I want to honour myself, I want to meet myself, the real me.
Also, I plan to write more often on the blog, so I’ll read you soon, and remember, you are worth it, you can do it, you are not alone, even if you think you are, you aren’t, and you are strong enough.
